Is Grief is a hamster wheel or maybe just a way of life
I am in grief I am sure many of you can say this too. But I am so tired of grief being here in my coffee for brakfast, in my sandwich at lunch. In the mailbox. In my bubble bath at night. Taking a shower so you can cry in the rain of water that flows down your face. I didnt expect it to be like this. Its been 5 months today. Feels like it was 4 months ages ago. I am tired of others telling me of their grief from 5 years ago, 10 years ago,18 months ago. Can i just enjoy mine because I truly dont care about yours today. I may tomorrow or next week, next month, but right now I want to sit in my grief. Feel it, nurture it, celebrate it. For some reason celebrating it means that I am able to remember the person I celebrate, love, nurtured, lost. I wont mention my person so if you want to put yours here instead, but maybe I dont want you to decide if you know her or celebrate her like i do... Maybe i dont want you to judge her worthiness of MY grief. Yet here i am saying i am tire...