What does that mean exactly? It used to mean something different to me than it does now. I used to accept what normal was and then the opposite was the "unexpected". I am not quite so sure these days.
You see, God has been taking me thru the back door lately and giving me a backstage tour on what He wants for me. I am floored that He desires to do something good. Why would I feel that way? I have been living in existence for so long that to do more than day-to-day is my new "normal".
I am listening Lord... that used to be followed by a long silence and then a "whenever you are ready Lord?"
These past few months God has been showing me a different approach. I am starting to realize that He is giving shorter directions and expecting me to act on them....now....now"
He is starting to let me see my actions contribute to His plan, not some general make the world a better place, and it will all get better in the end, smile and be happy, blah blah blah. I still believe in those things, but it is less about whether I am happy and more about was this action, moment, word, decision worth more than the immediate. Is this something worth your effort?
God has shown me how selfish I am . How introspectively focused I am. How utterly useless I can be when I am.
He is challenging me to listen more, sit still and wait. He has more than today planned. More than tomorrow planned. More than I care about planned. He has given me hope.
Hope in Him the author and finisher of the faith He gave me in the first place. I was in a place without hope last year, the year before, the decade before. I was trying to manufacture hope and create a smile, hug, be happy, life is good attitude based on feelings manufactured.
Doesn't work....
Not only was I hopeless, I was frustrated and trying to pull others into my manufactured happiness. This all sounds trite and simply babble for the sake of babbling. But really I am not sure how to explain it accept that my life is different and I am seeing things in a unique way. Normal means God is in control and I no longer have to be. God is planning and I need to listen to the instructions He gives me today, not next week. He will update me when He sees me act on on what He has asked.
end of story...
I pray you find the place where He has changed something in your life today.
Hugs
Lolly Jeane
